Brian:
Did I hear you right?
Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
Delta:
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Brian:
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Brian & Delta:
Bruise and battered by your words
Days are shattered, how it hurts
Brian:
Oh, haven't I always loved you?
Delta:
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Brian & Delta:
Bruise and battered by your words
Days are shattered, now it hurts
Brian:
Haven't I always loved you?
Delta:
But when I need you
You're almost here
Brian:
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
Delta:
And when I hold you
You're almost here
Brian:
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
Brian & Delta:
And now I'm with you
I'm close to tears
Brian:
Cause I know I'm almost here
Brian & Delta:
Only almost here
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Ever e-ever ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever ee-ver ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever ee-ver ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever ee-ver ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever ee-ver ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
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have you ever felt so lonely?
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e-ever felt ever felt ever felt so lonely
remember the time
when you here inside my dream
i wish you'll be mine
you're understanding what i mean
discover and see
that you're the only one for me
together we'll be free
that so it's ment to be
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely?
have you ever felt so lonely?
Lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Ever e-ever ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever e-ever ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever ee-ver ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever ee-ver ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever ee-ver ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
ever felt so lonely
remember the time
when you here inside my dream
i wish you'll be mine
you're understanding what i mean
discover and see
that you're the only one for me
together we'll be free
that so it's ment to be
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely you're the one and only did you ever by. why did you say goodbye
have you ever felt so lonely?
Ever e-ever ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever e-ever ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever e-ever ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Ever e-ever ever e-ever felt so ever e-ever ever felt so lonely
Dear called just now. chatted for like at most 3 mins? Sigh... I also don't know what to talk to him about. He apologised for not keeping his promise. I'm not mad because he didn't keep his promise. hmmm... Maybe I was mad. But that was like 2 days ago! I mad because of myself. I can't believe I'm so selfish. Only concerning about me being neglected. Wake up girl! He's undergoing even more emotional and physical trauma than you being neglected! I'm trying not to feel sorry and pitiful for myself. Trying to be more understanding about his situation. But it seems such an impossible task. GOD! When did I become such a selfish brat??? I don't know how to tell him about it... I'm evil. I'm mean. I'm selfish. I only care about myself. Why do I deserve to be loved??? He deserves someone better than me. Someone who is selfless, unlike me. Someone who is understanding, unlike me... I feel so ashamed of myself... feel so ashamed of being his girlfriend... he definitely deserves someone better than me...
This is the 3rd time I'm blogging for today. Just finished doing Signals and Systems tutorial. Not much progress today also. Coz no mood to study. haiz... Sian... Also don't know what to blog. Signing off...
Blogging again. Just had lunch. Daddy bought lunch. If not, I don't even think I'll eat. Daddy was suprised that I'm at home. Was even more suprised to find me home so early yesterday. I'm waiting for his message, waiting for his call. Waiting, waiting and waiting...
It's Sunday. I'm at home. Suprised? Messaged him several times. Yet not even a single reply. Messaged him last night before I slept. No reply when I woke up several times to check on the phone. I've totally no idea what's going on. Is he busy? Asleep? Ignoring me? Can't study. Feeling restless and listless. Feel nauseous. Everything's just not right. Can't point out the problem. What am I gonna do now? Don't know... Hope he replies me asap. Coz I'm damn worried for him. If he's ignoring me, let me know that he's unhappy about me and not keep worrying me. Everything's messed up. Screwed up. Tired. Headache still there. No appetite.
I just came home. Many things have happened recently. Haven't had anything since breakfast. No appetite. Many things swirling in my brain. Rarely can I be found at home on a saturday night. Didn't go to Kailing's party on friday night(last night). Came back home from Clementi. Now blogging. But don't know what to start blogging about. Mind's in a mess. Can't filter. Disappointed, lethargic and neglected. But what can be done? Can't do anything about it too. Tell him also no use. Only add on to his burden. He has too much on his mind lately. My problems are just minor stuffs compared to his. Have to be tolerant and understanding. I'll just have to bear it with me as long as I can. Thought I could have dinner with him as what he promised me yesterday. But... Just that I hate it when I get empty promises. Well, it's no big deal. Really. Had that many times already. All alone at home ain't that bad at all. Serious. I'll go look see if there's any food at home. If there's none, then fast for another day won't die, since I managed to fast through yesterday breakfast and lunch. Save money too. But now I've to think of excuse of coming home so early coz Daddy will surely ask me why am I home so early. Signing off...